Summer's over, time to settle down....or is it?

It's September which means that the season is finally beginning to wind down here in Dubrovnik. It's been a crazy summer for me full of working, dinner with friends and family, and partying. I don't think that I have done anything like that in my life. I'm nearly 30, this should be the time when I should be thinking about marriage and babies and shit. NOPE. Instead of doing the grown up responsible thing of husband hunting, I partied like never before. I was going out every couple of days and drinking and dancing and having blast. I met some of the coolest people from all over the world. I spent the summer going out, sleeping for a few hours then getting up, going to the gym, then going to greet new guests who were at my apartment. I wasn't doing it everyday but, it sure felt like it. Towards the end of the summer, I looked in the mirror and thought, "Holy Shit! I am looking a bit haggard!" That's when I knew it was time for a break.

I know that there might be people who may think that I'm absolutely crazy; that I should settle down and stop acting like I'm 20. Well...I spent most of my twenties trying to do the right thing, being a grown up, looking for my one true love, thinking that I found him, realizing that I fucked up and spent way too much time with the wrong guy, and then being afraid and sad that I missed out on so many things that I wanted to do with my life. Turns out, it's never too late to do the things we've always wanted to do. So, I set out to check certain things off of my bucket list and I  let loose for a bit; sew my wild oats, if you will. And I have to say that some of the best moments of my life happened this summer.

Of course, it's September now and I'm tired; I mean I'm almost 30 after all. I've moved back to the countryside and am spending my days curled up on my couch reading a book or watching a good movie. I still go out, but I've definitely calmed my partying ways down a bit.

My life went down an entirely different track than I thought it would. I honestly thought that at this age, I would be married and starting a family. Had my life gone down that path, I would never have gotten the chance to experience all these amazing things that have happened to me. It's been a bumpy road at times, but I wouldn't change these last couple of years for the world. And at the end of the day, I know that I will settle down and get married and have babies one day. I'm not too worried about that. Everything happens when the time is right. These last couple of years have been a time for me to get to know myself again, find my self confidence, and just learn how to have fun again. Mission accomplished.